fuck everything; life

this happens every year 
it’s only one day out of the year that I ask a just few people to celebrate my birthday with me
& i find that unless its convenient for them, they show no effort
they cant even take the time out of their busy ass life’s to say no  

its ONE day, one fucking day
i feel like i’m loosing everyone at this point
it makes me wonder if they were really there to begin with.

i move a hour away and it really made a difference 
it made me realize who really gives a shit

what value i hold in their life’s

I really need someone who gives at least one flying fuck about something other than themselves, 
someone who is worth sharing and enjoying my life with. 

theres got to be someone. 

life rants friendship birthday hopeless alone one of those days people suck sometimes just want a friend too much to ask